2006-06-14 - 11:41 a.m. Flux Freefall? *splat* Looming, deadly, funerals, weddings, orginziation, responsabilites, iteraries, things left undone, projects unmaned. Lists. Orders. Chaos. I feel in the dark and falling with nothing to hold onto, but I know I am okay. I was diving once in a quarry. Crystal Clear water and I could see the bottom. I wanted to touch it but It was hard to judge how far down the bottom was. I balanced how deep I could dive to save enough breath to acend. One time I took the risk, betting if I hit the bottom, I could push off and get to the surface faster. So I dove deeper. I pushed it to the edge and never got to the bottom. After going so deep, I paniced, and turned around knowing that I didn't have enough breath to make it to the top. I kept reaching for the surface, and it didn't come fast enough. Like the bottom it felt out of reach. | |||||||||||
